One of the things that’s come alive in me in the past 30 days while I take this break is my ability to dream again. With a clear mind and a way too free schedule, I’ve let myself rebuild the infrastructure of my goals in my head. When you’re busy living life for someone else’s dream, you don’t often have the emotional energy to give your own dreams even 1% of your focus. But if I’ve learned anything, it’s that you have to make time for your own dreams. You have to let yourself create a checklist of your greatest desires for your life and then you have to create a roadmap of how you’re going to get there, even if you have no idea at all. Put something, anything, down on paper. Try new ideas, let them fail or watch them succeed, but by all means necessary- try.
That’s where I am, 30 days later. I’m trying. I’m failing in some and I’m succeeding in others but I’m trying and I’m living, really living. And some days I’m lazy and take a nap, but I’m committed to these dreams and I could never have said that 30 days ago. And not just my dreams, but those of the people around me. I’m committed to seeing my husband’s dreams come true and I’m committed to helping him create his roadmap to get there. We will try and maybe fail together but we’ll keep trying every day until they happen. I’m committed to promoting the dreams of my friends and supporting the ones that are already living their dreams and to praying for the friends that don’t even know what it means to dream anymore. I’m committed to believing in the dreams of my parents and letting their aspirations inspire me and the next generation of our family on to greater and bigger things- things bigger than they ever thought they could accomplish in their lifetime.
A rising tide lifts all boats.
I’m so committed to the dreams that we’re all dreaming. Do you want to know why? Because dreaming brings freedom and trying brings confidence. There is so much freedom in trying, and even in failing. There’s so much freedom if you decide you want it.
Do you want to know what I’m dreaming about and working towards? A new apartment with a space for Joe to create whenever he wants; something with a huge open concept, dark wood floors and lots of natural light where artists and musicians feel at home. A place to entertain. A career in beauty that allows me to travel the world and talk to women in different cultures about what beauty means to them. A home office with a large black desk and a beautiful rug. A trip to Mykonos with my whole family. A college fund for my nephews and nieces. A dog. The confidence to feel great about myself amongst the people influencing New York. To have the time and ability to make something beautiful everyday. Those are my dreams today.
What about you? Are you dreaming? What about? Start to dream, create a roadmap and try.